Trust your instinct, find your own medicine

Today it’s been about 4 weeks I am locked inside my apartment in Dublin, working from home with my husband.

It’s been a lot of mixed feelings mainly because we have no idea when we’ll be able to go back to Italy and see our family and friends, hoping that nothing bad will happen to them because of this pandemic.

Our routine has completely changed, we were super busy travellers not spending much time at home and now being all day at home just the two of us.

We have built a new routine and we are quite happy about that. We have the opportunity to spend more time together, nurture our interests and passions, stay virtually closed and connected with family and friends.

There are some up and downs of course, but this is not different from a “normal” life.

The biggest challenges have been that now more than ever we need to face the reality that life can’t be controlled, and the lack of freedom.

Today I was bit low because I really miss the nature. After I finished my job I took a book and went to read it outside in the balcony, and I‘ve realised I was overwhelmed with my emotions. I didn’t try to control my emotions, I’ve cried.

We decided to go for a walk around the blocks... not a green area unfortunately but at least some fresh air.

We have our usual route, but today we decided to change it and we suddenly ended up in front of this beautiful tree, in full bloom.

My heart have been bursted with joy, this was pure medicine. I was happy again.

I’ve made a quick reflection and this is what I’ve learned:

• I‘ve let my emotions flow

• I’ve trusted my instinct for what I needed

• Changing the usual route has gifted a beautiful surprise

• Just a tree in full bloom was the medicine I needed
  

If you are overwhelmed with your emotions especially these days, you are afraid, anxious... don’t try to control your emotions, let them flow.

Trust you instinct, it will guide you and give the medicine you need.

Be your own medicine.